Im Backkkk!

 Zooooom, Zooooom, Zuuump! Time flies just like a snap. It's already mid of July, and exam is in 1 more week time oh! Now i'm still trying hard for my art class to that I can be qualified to enter Form 5 Art Class. Its not easy than I thought. Up till now I can't even do shading and painting nicely. Bah bah bah.. 

Here's some drawings.. some are copy righted from the internet :) Geehehehe.. 

Gonna keep drawing! Gambateh! Fighting! :D 

Story Between Us

Used to think one day we'd tell the story of us

People would say, "they're the lucky ones"

I used to know my place was a spot next to you

Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat

'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

DUHH, a simple complication

Miscommunications lead to fall out

So many things that I wish you knew

So many walls up I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone

In a crowded room

And we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you

Like it's killing me?

I don't know what to say

Since a twist of fate

When it all broke down

And the story of us

Looks a lot like a tragedy now

How'd we end up this way?

See me nervously pulling at my clothes

And trying to look busy

And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us

How I was losing my mind when I saw you here

But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, we're scared to see the ending

Why are we pretending this is nothing?

I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how

I've never heard silence quite this loud

My Dream Guy.

His smile.

His eyes.

His touch.

His HEART. 

The way he looks and those glare is melting my heart, when I saw you..

But now, 

You ignored me.

No text. 

No call.

No sign. 

None.Nothing. 

Once he promise to give me something for Valentine before he go to college.

But I just kept quiet because I'm too afraid that he may know my feelings.

I never message him, never greet him, never talk to him. Only watching him from distance..

But actually right deep inside my heart, I'm waiting a sign from him. 

Sometime I just walk away when he wanted to talk to me..

When I reach at the doorstep, I felt so heavy inside.. Saying I'm so very sorry..

Then, when I continue like this,

I notice he begin to change..

One day, he just *BOOM!*

Till now, I wonder what will he do with those Valentine gift? 

Know what is my feeling? 

Regretted.

Btw, I still got a looong journey more. I believe that one day everything will be fine. :) 

P/S : Not Emo-ing! XD

"I only get jealous because I love you and I don't want anyone one to have you" 

I MEAN IT. 

It's Mama's Day! ❤

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

Yeahh, have my breakfast while watching TV.

Just pretend that nothing is going on :)

But in my mind thinking..

" Aiyah.. feeling like got one more thing that is not complete?" :\

Card?  Done- 

Present?  Noohhh..

Lunch?  I don't know how to cook. 

Surprise plan?  Not really.. :O 

AH! *Ting!* Ran to my neighbour house and start planning. Tsk tsk tsk..

At Sweety Bear shop with all Domoies! 

Angry Birds >:|

This is the Teddy that I chooosseee! :)

Two Teddiesses 

"Hi coco.."

 "Hi Vanilla.."

 Latest version of Domoies <3

 RM7.90

The caarrd... Haven't complete yet. 

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But bad thing is Mother's day fall on my EXAM DAY. D=

Weeeeee~!

Falling away from your true self

-Holiday is gonna over :( So before I get back to school, here is my last blog for Marchies! ;] Wulalala~

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All confident and up on your abilities? That's the way it feels when you're using your true self to face the world.

                                                    

The opposite of this is when you're down, bummed, or worried that you don't measure up. When you feel like this it can lead you to make choices that you don't really like. You might act in ways that aren't really you.

You may dress in styles that are just like everybody else because you're afraid of being rejected. You may agree with stuff you don't believe in, pretend you don't know the answer to questions, or pretend you don't really have an opinion about things so people won't make fun of you.

When doubt and worry began to make you act differently than you normally would, you're falling from your true self. And its a BIG deal!

They figure that other people speak up and do their own thing are just different. They may figure that they were just born confident, or something bla blah..(?)

But it’s not that you were born without confidence. It's that something has made you question yourself.

Like, i'm not good enough, others can do better than me..Maybe I shouldn't try. 

If ever said things like this to yourself, GET UP! and try to make some changes. Be grateful with who you are though you’re not perfect. Remember, you’re always special in God's eyes .

The Beauty Of Denying Yourself

The look of Jesus will mean a heart broken forever them allegiance to any other person or thing. -Oswald Chambers

     If you really look, I think you will find the most of your emotional misery comes from wanting something you don't have. Although at first giving up wanting people to love you and stuff surround you seem like a really hard thing to do, the truth is that once you give up wanting what you don't have, you give up being miserable. Think about it : You're miserable because you don't have a boyfriend. You really want to be loved, but you can't find a guy who likes you. You want people to like you for who you are, but she's spreading all kinds of rumors about you. What's really making You miserable is not the other people or things around you buy your thoughts about those people things. When you want what you don't have, you're miserable. Miserable, miserable, miserable! 

 You have the power to feel better just by changing how you think. 

(Idol Girls - Hayley Dimarco)

Conflict of Emotions!

GAAHH..BACK FROM SCHOOL! HAVEN'T TAKEN MY BATH YET. TODAY SCHOOL GOT 'SUKANEKA' :D DAMN FREAKING HOT! THE SUN. NO SHADE AT ALL. I GUESS EVERY YEAR MY SKIN COLOUR WILL CHANGE ALREADY..LIKE BIAWAK ._. OHH PFFT...BUT I DO ENJOY IT =D F.U.N!  

   TODAY WE DO 'LONTAR PELURU' AND 80 METER RUNNING. I FAILED TO DO THE 'LONTAR PELURU' JUST BY ABITT MOREE.. :( BUT I PASSED THE 80 METER ONE.. HEEE :B I THINK I GOT 4TH PLACE GUA.. THEN, TOMORROW WILL BE 200M AND LONG JUMP! :) OH YEAH~ ❤

  9.45 A.M WE FINISH OUR ACTIVITIES ALREADY. THEN, BACK TO OUR CLASS! :[ TIME FOR PNP LORH... AFTER REHAT WE GOT ENGLISH! TODAY IS MY TURN TO PRESENT MY AURAL. TITTLE : FAST FOOD EFFECTS ON HEALTH. KINDA NERVOUS ALSO. >:| BUT, FINALLY TEACHER SAY MY VOICE NOT LOUD ENOUGH, SHE CAN'T HEAR. DANG! WASTED :( WENT SO SMOOTHLY SAMORE.. WU...NEXT PRESENTATION IS AFTER MY EXAM. THEN NEXT 2 MORE WEEK, I NEED TO PRESENT AT MY ASSEMBLY PLACE. =S STILL FINDING ARTICLE FOR THAT. 4x MY ARTICLE ALREADY BEEN REJECT BY TEACHER. @_@ NEED TO FIND SOMETHING THAT COULD ATTRACT PEOPLE. :) 
   AND THIS MORNING WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL  :UHH...MY MIND, STILL FLOATING OF THIS MORNING ILLUSION. SAW SOMETHING AT MY NEIGHBOUR TOW CAR. SOMETHING THINGY THINGY..HEEKKK.NOT SURE IZZIT A HUMAN OR WHAT LE..

-ORANGE COLOUR T-SHIRT

-VERY DARK SKIN (LIKE GET BURNED) 

-LYING ON THE DRIVER SEAT

-STARING OUT OF THE WINDOW, KINDA SCARY LOOK TOO. >.< 

I DIDN'T TELL MY MOM BOUT TIS. LOL. I TRIED TO GO NEAR, BUT WAS TO BLURR.. CAUSE DIDN'T WEAR MY SPEC. ._. THEN, I JUST IGNORE IT, AND GET INTO MY CAR. 

Grr.. GET USED ALREADY SEEING ALL THIS 'THINGY' THING. XD 

  NOW IM FEELING SO SLEEPY. MY SHOULDER IS ACHING. TT_TT SAKIT-NYEEH.. BUT GOT LOTSTA HOMEWORK. EXAM IS COMING SOON! 22/2. NEXT WEEK LE! MY MATH & HISTORY. WEAKEST SUBJECT. :[ BOUGHT ALL MY LATIHAN BOOK TO PREPARE ALREADY. HIAK~! </3 

HOPE TOMORROW MY LEG WON'T ACHE TOO.. :O 

RARW! >:B ( -BAU )